wyteheart - One Last Time

2012...

2012-01-15T23:44:00.002+08:00

finally...

2009-04-29T15:25:00.014+08:00

This has been a cycle right from the start
where every single turn
is like a stab in my heart...
I see you, and for some reason i know
this really is worth fighting for...

For years, I've allowed myself to fall
for a long time i did it all
holding on to a hope that you will reach for my hand
and together we'll face the world
who wouldn't understand...

When there's no one else around to see
and we're both scared of what might be
I would look at myself and wonder
if i didn't love you,
would everything be better?

Can i let this go?
When the only sound i hear
is the beating of our hearts
and with your every touch
true happiness starts.

All i want is to be true
and face the truth
that no matter what i do,
I really LOVE YOU!

I tried to fight it, but I'd rather give in
through all this hurt...
wondering what could have been?
When I'd wish i could tiptoe
out of this hiding and pretending
and finally put an end to this endless waiting.

See I've lost myself in this love
when I've tried walking away but i can't
when I've done everything i could, loving you..
when I've chosen what i want and need
but wondering where this will lead...

I let rivers of tears fall from my eyes
cried over everything, the truth and lies
when I wipe away the tears off my face
and embrace these feelings I cant erase
I hope to God that one day
in true love you'll see
and that someday,

finally..

you'll choose to be with me...

Eternally...

2009-04-11T11:10:00.007+08:00

Do i really Love you?
Yes! With all my heart...
this heart of mine reflects who i am,
it shows my entire soul,
it has a unique beat,
and it beats only for you...

I don't have anything,
Time is all that i can give you
my time is my life
and whenever i give it to you
i am making a sacrifice
Cause I'm giving you a portion of life
that i can never get back...

Are you the best one for me?
Yes... No... Maybe... Dunno...
you may not be the best one for me,
but you're the most important person in my life...
And it's not how much i love you that counts,
it's how happy you are,
while i was there loving you...

Those simple words
Words that i can only whisper in my dreams
Cause you're gone now,
in a place where several angels gather
you're so far away from me...
My love,
If only i can be with you there...

If my tears can show you to me,
I'm willing to cry a million tears
but I've been crying for a very long time...
And this scar in my heart is a reminder
that our love was real...
An ordinary love that I'll always remember...

The art of letting go is so hard for me to start
and the step to moving on is so difficult for me to take
Guess it's because of this simple reason...

My love,
I've never been so lost as I am now
without you...
Loving you is what my life's all about...

I've been preparing myself all my life for you...
And now I'm just so afraid...
I'm afraid to be alone....

If i ever see you in my dreams tonight
I'm gonna ask you to save me... heal me...
and help me string all events in my life into place,
cause i merely want this to end...

and put this heartache to rest...

Eternally...

One Last Time

2008-12-16T16:09:00.005+08:00

Remember when i asked you,
"When is this supposed to last?"
you said, "Forever"...
I believed you then...
I still believe you now.

I have given you my heart
My scared and broken heart.
It is yours to keep.
Coz I have fallen hopelessly and undeniably inlove with you.

"I am alive, To love you!"

Thought our love is strong to stand the test of time.
But as days goes by
- together with the rainbow-colored sky -
slowly, it's now fading away...

I'm no longer welcome in your presence.
I'm afraid to stare at you now,
coz i don't want you to see me
holding back my tears...
I can't even dare to speak a word,
coz you might hear the hurt in my voice.

I cannot express how i truly feel
in fear of tears that fall so easily.
But as long as you're still here with me,
This heart of mine will never let go.

I want you to know what truly love is.
A genuine love...
Bear no pain...
Feel no hurt...
and with love,
I want you to be the best person you can be...
Even without me...

I knew i would love you
right from the very start.
But i just didn't know
I could love anybody this much.

With all my heart and soul,
I'm so willing to sacrifice myself...
- surrender my own happiness -
just to see you happy.

One Last Time...

A very special day...

2008-11-28T14:11:00.006+08:00

From the bottom of my heart..
Thank you so much for all of this...

Thank you for making me feel how sweet love can be,
the second time around....

Thank you for coming back,
and for saving me once again...

I know you probably wonder from time to time what you mean to me.
I just wanna let you know that you matter more to me than you can imagine, and much more than i'll ever be able to explain...

What I have found in you is what every
person in the world is searching for...

You are my life...
I'm useless without you...

I Love You so much!!!

And i will always do everything i can,

to understand....

Friends?

2008-11-25T17:48:00.010+08:00

It's hard to wait around for something
you know might not happen...
but it's harder to give up when you know
it's everything you ever wanted.

Two good friends are seemingly communicating by merely looking and listening to each others heart.

Boy: How will i know you feel the same way?

Girl: Come to think of it, how will i show it to you when I'm not free to do it.

Boy: I want to love you back but i don't wanna hurt her. It's about time to move on.

Girl: Yah! I know it's about time to clear this things out.

Boy: What do you mean?

Girl: It's about the insensitivity in you. If you only know how I am willing to fight for this feelings but you're not giving me the reason to do so.

Boy: Am sorry, But please stay...

Girl: Yah! As if i have a choice...

That was sent to me by my friend...
She told me she herself made it for me.

******

Green Rose for you... Your Favorite!

I am not completely insensitive...
I'm aware about it but i ain't taking it seriously cause you didn't even bother to tell me a single thing to justify all those thoughts.

I was once the reason of your "High School Heartbreak". And now after almost 5 years, you're hurting because of me the second time around. I don't know what to do... what more can i say? just to lessen the pain... I didn't mean to hurt you and i don't want to hurt you...

Knowing the person I now truly love is honestly beyond my control.
And i know you understand...

I'M SORRY!!!

I'm sorry for not considering your emotions
and for not asking how you exactly feel.
I'm sorry for breaking your heart over and over again.
That would be the last time...
Don't worry, i will do my part..
No calls,
No texts,
No online messages,
No meet - ups...

Just take one step at a time.
Changes must sometimes be made and don't be afraid to make them.

Thank you so much for everything.
For sharing the sunshine and shadows of my days.
I will surely gonna miss you!

I know you'll be back.
Whenever you're ready, just hit me up...
I'll just be waiting here...

And I will always stay the same....

For You!

Sa araw ng Pasko...

2008-10-29T19:16:00.007+08:00

Dama ko na ang malamig na simoy ng hangin
Nakikita ko na ang nagkikislapang mga ilaw sa daan
Natatanaw ko na ang mga batang nagkakantahan sa lansangan
At mga taong abala sa nalalapit na pagdiriwang...

Ilang tulog na nga lang…
Pasko na naman…

kung kaya ko lang pigilan ang pasko
kung kaya ko lang pahintuin ang araw sa pagtakbo nito
gagawin ko ng walang alinlangan at buong puso
hanggang sa sandaling ika’y dumating na dito sa piling ko…

paano ako makakapaghanda
kung wala ka para sabihin ang mga bagay na gusto mo
paano ako makakain sa noche buena
kung wala ka para tikman lahat ng mga niluto ko,
ang mga pagkain na minsa'y naging bahagi ng buhay mo..
paano ako makakapagtayo ng malaking Christmas Tree
kung hindi mo rin mabubuksan ang mga regalo sa ilalim nito
mga regalo na buong taon ko ring pinag-ipunan para sayo…

Sa darating na pasko
Maaalala ko muli ang ating nakaraan
Sa araw ng kasiyahan
muling babalik ang tamis ng ating pagmamahalan
sa muli kong pagdiriwang ng pasko
tanging mga alaala mo na lamang
ang syang natitira at makakasama ko
dito sa puso kong minsa'y naging tahanan mo..

kung ipahihintulot ng diyos
nais sana kitang hiramin sa araw ng pasko
gusto ko lang iabot sayo itong munti kong regalo,
yung photo album na gustong gusto kong ibigay sau...
gusto kong punuin natin ito ng mga larawan
at mga alaala sa huling pasko na ating pagsasamahan...

kung sa susunod man ay magkulang ang aking panalangin
at hindi ka na nya muling ipagkaloob sa akin
sapat na ang limampung pahina ng mga larawan
para maging buo at tunay na maligaya
ang susunod pang limampung taon
na malayo ka sa piling ko…

at sapat na ang isang buong araw na mga alaala
para maipagdiriwang ko ng masaya
ang mga susunod pang pasko
na wala ka na sa buhay ko...

Saan ka man naroroon...

Maligayang Pasko Sa'yo Mahal Ko!

sana...

2008-09-27T13:45:00.003+08:00

ito'y buong puso kong isinulat para sayo
sa kabila ng masakit na katotohanan
na kahit kailan ay hindi mo malalaman
na ikaw ang siyang tinutukoy ng liham kong ito.

alam mo ba...
kahit hindi ka magsalita,
buo na araw ko nasa tabi lang kita.
sana mabanggit mo kahit minsan,
na naging masaya ka dahil ako ang iyong kasama.

Handa akong ipagsigawan sa buong mundo
ang tunay kong nararamdaman sayo...
at alam kong kahit ikaw ay nasa tabi ko pa
hindi mo rin maririnig ang tibok nitong puso ko,
ang puso kong nanghihina kasisigaw ng pangalan mo...

Sa kabila ng kirot at sakit dito sa puso ko
na dulot ng labis kong pagmamahal ko sayo
ay ikaw pa rin magpa-hanggang ngayon
ang dahilan kung bakit tumitibok pa ito...

pagmasdan mo ang mga luha ko,
para maunawaan mo ang laman ng aking puso,
at nang maramdaman mo ang pag-ibig ko sayo
na nakakubli sa bawat patak nito...

hindi ko magawang ilihim ang pananabik sayo
ang maging bahagi sa bawat daang nilalakbay mo,
ayaw kong sundan ang mga yapak na tinatahak mo,
ngunit bakit ganito...?
hindi ko maihakbang ang mga paa ko papalayo sayo..

wala na akong lakas pa
hindi ko na maitago ang luha sa aking mga mata..
at hindi ko na rin kayang pigilan pa
ang aking mga ngiting dahan dahan nang nawawala...

hindi ko hihilingin na ibsan mo ang aking kalungkutan,
bigyan mo lang ako ng kaunting pag-asa,
na balang araw ay makakalimutan din kita.
Na isang araw, mawawala ka na rin sa isip ko
at tuluyan ng maglalaho sa loob ng puso ko...

sana...
maintindihan nitong aking isipan,
na kailanman ay hindi mo magagawang tandaan,
ang mahahalagang bagay na hindi ko kayang kalimutan…

at sana...
matanggap nitong aking puso,
ang katotohanan na mas magiging masaya ka
kung wala ako sa buhay mo...

sa maikling sandali...

2008-09-08T12:25:00.006+08:00

Kung sakaling may magmamahal sa akin,
gusto ko mahalin nya ako ng walang dahilan,
nang sa ganung paraan,
wala ring dahilan para ako'y kanyang iwanan..

Kung pagbibigyan ako ng isang pagkakataon
isang kahilingan para sa buong magdamag
pipiliin kong bumalik sa aking kahapon
at kung maari sana ay kasama ka...

Nais kitang isama pabalik sa nakaraan ko
para maipakilala ko sayo ang sarili ko
ang simpleng pamumuhay na meron ako
at ang dalisay na pagmamahal
na minsan ay nanirahan sa puso ko.

Isang saglit lang
para maipadama ko sayo
na bago nawasak itong puso ko
minsan sa buhay ko ay nagmahal din ako ng totoo...
isang gabi lang
para maunawaan mo,
na kaya ako nasaktan ng ganito,
ay dahil pinili kong maging maligaya
ang taong pinakamamahal ko...

Maikling panahon lang
makasama ko ang taong minamahal ko,
kahit sandali lang
hindi ako matatakot yumakap sayo,
at sana sa isang saglit man lang
magawa mong mahalin ako,
gaya ng pagmamahal ko sayo...

Isang hiram na pagkakataon,
para makita mo ang lungkot sa mga mata ko...
Isang maikling sandali sa tabi mo,
para maipadama ko sayo
kung gaano ka kahalaga sa buhay ko...

Sa huling sandali ng gabing yun,
Nawa'y mabigkas ko sayo
ang bawat salitang matagal ko ring pinag-aaralan,
mga liham na nakakubli sa naguguluhan kong isipan,
at mga hikbi na kay tagal kung itinago sa aking kalooban..

At sa huling yugto nitong hiram na sandali,
magawa ko sanang iiyak
ang lahat ng sakit na bumabalot sa puso ko
para bukas sakaling magising man ako,
ay wala ng "IKAW" at LUHAng hahadlang pa
sa panibagong buhay na sisimulan ko...

sayo lamang...

2008-09-05T14:27:00.017+08:00

kung nasasaktan mo man ako
ako'y nagpapasalamat pa rin
dahil pinapaalala mo sakin
kung gaano kita kamahal...

Patawad,
alam ko marami akong pagkukulang sayo
marami akong mga bagay na nagawa
na hindi mo nagugustuhan...
at may mga nasasabi ako,
na ikinasasama ng iyong kalooban.

Sa kabila ng lahat ng dahilan na ibinibigay ko
para ako'y iwanan mo...
Hindi mo pa rin ako binibitawan..
Hindi mo na kailangang sabihin pa
ang iyong walang katumbas na pagmamahal,
sapagkat dati pa man,
ito'y nadarama ko na...

kahit wala kang binabanggit,
at sinusubukan mong wag nalang magsalita,
alam ko na may dinaramdam ka,
ang totoo nasasaktan din ako
sa tuwing nasasaktan kita....

Sa bawat sambit mo ng salitang "OK"
gustong gusto kitang yakapin
dahil alam kong may lungkot sa likod ng salitang yan,
nais ko lang maramdaman mo na andito pa ako
hindi pa rin nagbabago ang pagmamahal ko sayo.

Wag mo sanang isipin
na hindi ko pa rin sya nakakalimutan.
dahil ang totoo matagal na,
pinakawalan ko na ang mga alaala nya,
para bumuo ng panibagong alaala kasama ka.

masaya ako pag andyan ka,
Sa'yo lamang iaalay ang buong pagmamahal ko,
at kahit munting bahagi man lang
ng pagmamahal kong yun...
sana....
nagawa kong maipadama sayo...

Hindi kita kayang pakawalan...
Hindi rin kita kayang layuan...

ang tanging alam ko lang....
ay Mahal Pa Rin Kita!

in loving memory...

2008-08-31T15:48:00.013+08:00

Got a call from my mom. A sad news about a person who's very close to me... my childhood friend. He passed away. I was really shocked. He committed suicide. and the reason behind it? He was badly in love with this girl who doesn't even care about him... Jesus Christ! I couldn’t believe my ears. I can't blame him. Coz I know exactly how it feels to be heartbroken.. A lot of people misunderstood him, calling him "bastard" and a "no-good son". but we, he's friends, knew the kind of person he was inside-out.. He treated us all nicely... He comes out so tough, but like everyone else, He's also dealing with his own shortcomings and flaws. Yeah! He’s such a stubborn kiddo but take it from me, he's one hell of a friend! I felt sad for his mom.. He's a "mama's boy". I’ll definitely gonna pray for her. I know the way he love. Like me and most of my friends, we are willing to give everything up for the person we truly love. it was just sooo sad how strong love can be.. It’s the reason why I was miserable for a long time. And it’s now the reason for the sudden death of my friend.. I still remember a certain line from my friend, He was under the influence of alcohol that time, and He told me this…

"When I love someone, my entire world revolves around that person.. I will give my all, I no longer think about myself anymore. Now I’m just waiting for the right one and I hope she can take all the love that I can give..."

I can feel his sincerity at that very moment.. A drunken lover speaking from the heart. Whoever this girl is, wherever you are... I hope you are happy now!

My mom called me up coz she was sooo worried about me...
Like my friend, I'm thousand miles away from them too...
She was worried coz she knew I’ve been into that love-struggles before, And I just gave her assurance that I will never be in that kind of situation ever again...
I Love You Ma!

My dear friend,
I am actually now in the process of knowing the right one for me, And like you,
I also hope that this person can take all the love that I can wholeheartedly give...

Hope you're happy now wherever you are.
I will never forget you my friend.
May you Rest in Peace!

PS: take care of my beloved up there... I'll miss you both! :'(

I Love You

2008-08-21T19:09:00.011+08:00

The very first card i got from a very special person in my life...
you know who you are.... sorry for putting your card here...
oopps! it's "my card" now... hahaha
you have no choice sweetie... *winks*

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS!
you have no idea how happy i am..
for the efforts, for the love...
i truly appreciate it...

I will never ever forget this line of yours,
"I'M DYING TO TALK TO YOU!"
hehe.. that's it!
you just got me there...

YOU honestly turned out to be the love i never knew i wanted...
i want you to take just one moment to look into my eyes,
so you'll see how much I've been loving you all this time...
I'm happily in love with you, and i wanna keep it this way...

i can hurt myself just for you,
i can forget myself just for you,

I LOVE YOU....
more than words can say...

Para sa'yo mahal kong Ina...

2008-08-13T23:57:00.006+08:00

Natatandaan ko pa nung sinabi nyo sa akin to...

"alam ko na pinalaki kita ng maayos,
na isang mabuting tao,
kaya wala akong dapat ipag-alala,
kung sakali man na ika'y magpasyang lumayo
para hanapin ang kaligayahang nawala sayo..."

Hindi ko man masabi sa inyo kung gaano ako nagpapasalamat
at kayo ang naging magulang ko,
Nais ko lang malaman nyo
na sa bawat madilim na daang tinatahak ko,
sa bawat saya at lungkot na pinagdaanan ko,
at sa bawat pagsubok na hinarap ko ng mag-isa
ang pagmamahal at paniniwala nyo sa akin,
ang syang tangi kong kinakapitan...

Alam kong medyo nagtatampo kayo sa akin ngayon,
at alam kong lubos kayong nag-aalala sa aking pagkawala,
Nais ko lang humingi ng paumanhin sa inyo at sa mga kapatid ko...
kung medyo naging matagal yung pagpapagaling ko...

Sa unang pagkakataon ay hinayaan nyo akong maging malaya..
ilang araw din ang tinitiis ko sa matinding pangungulila sa inyo,
sana kasama ko pa rin kayo dito ngayon...
sana katabi ko kayo sa oras na ako'y kakain
sana nakakakwentuhan ko kayo bago ako matulog...
at sana ngiti nyo pa rin ang una kong nakikita
sa bawat umaga na ako'y gumigising...

hindi po madali ang mag-isa,
nahihirapan ako, pero alam ko na kakayanin ko rin 'to.
Pasensya na po kung hindi ako pumapayag na tumawag kayo,
alam ko kasi na nahihirapan na rin kayo dyan,
ayaw kong gumastos pa kayo..
Pasensya na rin po kung hindi man ako tumatawag sa inyo,
alam ko kasi na iiyak lang kayo pag makakausap nyo ako eh.
miss na miss ko na po kayo...

wag po kayong mag-alala,
makakauwi rin po ako balang araw...
babalik din po ako dyan...
alam kong nasasabik na kayong makita ulit ang panganay nyo..

alam ko na wala po kayong ideya sa mga ginagawa ko dito.
nais ko lang po na malaman nyo,
na ginagawa ko po lahat ma,
hindi po ako naging pasaway dito,
naging mabait po ako sa lahat ng taong nakakaharap ko,

mahal na mahal ko po kayo,
si papa at mga kapatid ko...
lahat po ng ito ay ginagawa at tinitiis ko,
para sa inyo, sa pamilya ko...

alam kong hindi ko mapapantayan ang pagmamahal at pag-aaruga
na sa akin ay inalay nyo...
nais ko lang pong malaman nyo,
na hangad kong mapaligaya kayo sa paraang alam ko...

mama,
sinusubukan ko pong maging isang mabuting tao...
para po sa inyo,
para sa pagdating ng panahon na magkakasama ulit tayo
ay maipagmamalaki nyo po ako...

maraming salamat po..

Hiling

2008-08-08T11:35:00.011+08:00

para sayo...

para sa akin...

at para sa kanya...

Kay tagal na rin mula ng mawala ka,
ilang buwan na rin ang lumipas,
Sa kabila ng aking pangungulila
ay kaligayahan pa ring maituturing ang katotohanang
masaya ka na saan ka man naroroon ngayon.

Matapos ang isang napakahabang paglalakbay
mula sa isang malungkot na paghihiwalay,
eto na ako... sa wakas...
unti unti ko nang naibabalik sa dati ang buhay ko..

Sa gitna ng aking pagsusumikap na makabangon muli
ay isang tao ang umaalalay sa akin...
sa kabila ng aking pagiging masungit at matigas ang ulo
pinagtyatyagaan nya pa rin ako...

Batid ko na eto rin ang gusto mo...
na makatayo akong muli...
magmahal ulit...
at maging masaya...

Nais ko lang sabihin
na kailangan ko ng magpaalam sayo...
sapagkat natututunan ko na syang mahalin..
maligaya ako sa pagmamahal na ibinibigay nya...
at masaya ako sa pagmamahal sa kanya...

kahit hindi nya sabihin,
alam ko na nasasaktan sya pag binabanggit kita sa kanya,
na iniisip nyang mas mahal pa rin kita,
at hindi pa ako handang magmahal ng iba...

batid ko na ako'y lihim mong pinagmamasdan,
dinggin mo sana itong aking munting hiling...

"patawarin mo sana ako sakaling makalimutan man kita...
kailangan na kitang alisin sa puso ko,
dahil gusto kong ibigay ito sa kanya ng buong buo...
gagawin ko lahat para sa kanya...
at tanging pangarap ko lang ang mapaligaya sya..

sa isa pang pagkakataon...
handa na akong ialay ulit ang buong buhay ko
para lang sa kanya..."

Healing a Broken Heart

2008-07-31T13:20:00.004+08:00

Remember, there is nothing wrong with being heart broken. This is something that most people go through at least once in their life; you are not alone. That being said, you should feel free to give yourself some time to mourn. You need to realize one thing: you are human just like everybody else. You are not the only person who has ever suffered from a broken heart. Sharing your thoughts is a great way to get past your broken heart and move onto bigger and better things. It is not always easy to reach out to somebody when suffering from a broken heart. But if you can get past this initial fear and seek out somebody to speak with, you will be much better off in the long run. When attempting to heal a broken heart, make sure that you look back and assess the experience so that you can move forward immediately and with more knowledge.When you first begin to suffer from broken heart syndrome it is safe to say that you will not feel much like socializing; and this is perfectly understandable. But as the days go by and you begin to feel better about yourself, it is important to socialize as much as possible. Some people begin to socialize and date soon after suffering a broken heart, and others wait a couple of months or years.

This is up to you, and will be based on how you feel as well as the way that you are trying heal your broken heart.

*Thanks to Healing a broken heart foundation*

*winkz*

A piece of a Broken Heart

2008-07-24T10:20:00.012+08:00

You once said you don't wanna hurt me,
and you couldn't stand to see me heartbroken,
Now, can you do me a favor?
please!.. gently close your eyes....

~wyteheart

"the more i give,
the more it seems
that i'm not good enough..."

The hardest part of walking away from you,
is knowing that you won't run after me..
So now I'm back to where i started,
alone in the dark
with all this pain,
aching in my heart...

You took a small piece of my heart.
all i need, is to see you one day,
I need to see the look in your eyes,
i need to feel your love,
most of all...
i need to know if it was REAL.

and maybe then,

I can get over you...

or maybe,

I'll still let you keep
that piece of my heart....

Single yet Taken...

2008-07-20T14:20:00.013+08:00

At the touch of your love,
I become a poet...

~wyteheart

It's through the pain that I know
how much I love you,
when each time my heart breaks,
it breaks only for you...

"If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go..."
Keep saying this line, every seconds of the day..
But how can you actually lose something you never had,
and if you never really had it, then...
why does the thought of losing it tear you apart.

When i had you and you were all mine
It felt like i had you forever till the end of time
but here comes "GOODBYE"
Since you spoke those words..
I feel like forever was only a minute..
ending at any second.

Now I'm left tracing the footprints
you left across my heart
as you walked through my life..

from friends to lovers...
lovers to complete stangers...
this is how cruel love can be..

I'M SINGLE YET TAKEN...
im afraid... but i keep on moving..
im in pain... but i still keep on loving..
No one knows how i hurt myself on the outside,
trying to kill the thing on the inside..

Each night I put my head to my pillow
and i try to tell myself
I'M STRONG!
'cause I've gone one more day without you...

Nighttime is always the best part of the day
Only because I can go back to my dreams...
where this three words,

I LOVE YOU...

means so much for me and you...

And All I Need... is YOU!

2008-07-08T11:07:00.017+08:00

Now I try and turn the page
It's you alone that I want
But I never get too far
My love,
this is tearing me apart...

~wyteheart

And all I need is someone to fight for me - over me,
And all I want is to feel love surrounding me so tightly,
Grasping me,
Stroking me,
Taking me for that journey.

I don't care if it doesn't last,
I don't mind if it is all just a game,
But I know that's a place that I want to have known,
So take me away,
For as long as you like.

You don't need to know me,
All you need to do is look and you'll see,
I don't try to hide myself from the world,
I just want to fit in,
I just want to be free.

And in the end all I have ever wanted was someone one like you,
And in the end nothing matters anymore it's true,
But I wish you were here to love me,
I wish I knew who you were,
What you looked like,
I wish you were real,
Where ever you are I don't have the strength to come find you,

I am sad and lost in despair,
Come look for me,
Guide me,
I need to know that who ever you are,
That you care.

*hidden Kiss*

Mahal kong Ama...

2008-07-04T11:20:00.007+08:00

Lahat ng bagay na meron ako..
Lahat ng taong minamahal ko…
Ang buong buhay ko…
Lahat ng ito’y hiram ko lang po sa inyo…

Batid ko na ang lahat ng ito ay panandalian lamang,
at balang araw, ibabalik ko rin sa inyo lahat ng pinahiram nyo sa akin…
nais ko lang malaman nyo na lahat ng biyayang pinagkaloob nyo sa akin…
ay buong puso ko pong iniingatan…
Sa lahat ng ito, ako po ay lubos na nagpapasalamat..

Salamat sa mga taong nagmamahal sa akin,
Sa pamilya ko…
Alam kong labis silang nag-aalala sa akin ngayun…
Ibulong nyo po sana sa kanila ang pagmamahal
na kay tagal ko na ring gustong sabihin…
Wag nyo po silang pababayaan…
Sila po ang buhay ko…

Salamat at minsan sa buhay ko ipinagkaloob mo sakin
Ang isang taong matagal ko na ring hinihintay…
Isang taong magmamahal sa akin…
Isang taong binago ang takbo ng buhay ko…
Isang taong mahal na mahal ko…

masaya po ako sa pagmamahal sa kanya...

Ngunit gaya ng iba, sya ay hiniram ko lang din..
At alam kong darating din ang panahon
Na kailangan ko na syang ibalik sa inyo…
Hindi ko alam kong hanggang kelan..
Ngunit batid ko na ang lahat ay ayun sa iyong kagustuhan…

Mahal kong AMA,
Ako po ay may munting kahilingan…
Pagdating ng panahon na kailangan ko na silang isuko sa inyo…
Sana po ay ipadama nyo sa kanila ang pagmamahal ko,
Ang pagmamahal na buong puso kong inaalay…
At wag nyo po sana akong burahin sa alaala nila...

Hayaan nyo po sanang mahalin ko sila…
Hayaan nyo po akong masaktan…
Hayaan nyo po akong lumuha…

Yun lang Aking AMA,

Kaligayan ko na po ang mabuhay sa kanilang mga alaala…

starts with goodbye...

2008-07-03T12:54:00.007+08:00

I was sitting on my doorstep,
I hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand,
But I knew I had to do it,
And he wouldn't understand,
So hard to see myself without him,
I felt a piece of my heart break,
But when you're standing at a crossroad,
There's a choice you gotta make.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on
with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on
with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

Time, time heals,
The wounds that you feel,
Somehow, right now.

is it time to make a change???

2008-06-30T09:31:00.015+08:00

Pictures were sent to me via email...
from my BORDZ.. hehe *winx* (^_~)

I was so touched...
so im putting it here to inspire you guyz too...

Dont just look at this as plain-ordinary pictures...
try to open your heart, and make a difference...

Observe around you and be thankful for all that you have in this transitory lifetime...

Don't forget to be kind to strangers.
For some who have done this have entertained angels without realizing it.

Anyone who has ever struggled with poverty
knows how extremely expensive it is to be poor.

The world is a dangerous place, not because of those who do evil,
but because of those who look on and do nothing.

Let us complain less, and give more...

Some people are struggling over 5-10 years or more
just to be able to spell their names.

Some of you may think that this isn't a part of my blog 'n all..
I just wanna be part of the cycle, of the solution,
in my own simple-little-ordinary way...

So now, its time to do your part...
close your eyes to see the hidden reality of life...
and ask yourself...

When are you going to make a change???

thanks to you...

2008-06-29T11:13:00.007+08:00

I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere....

~wyteheart

It's not the tears I cried that makes it so hard...
It's the small piece of hope left inside my heart...
That someday, someone will come along to lift me up...

Its funny how somethings can change, and you'd never realize it.
Everything happens for a reason they say, months ago id never believe it.
So many times i asked why.
And so many times i wouldn't get a reply.

It took me forever, over a year of feeling hurt and regrets
To really see what was meant to be.
i will touch others life like what you did to mine.
i hope you're proud of me..
You showed me everything i could be and that it was all me.

we may be in separate places,
surrounded by different
friends and family.
but wherever we may be,
you owns a special place inside me...

I'm doing everything i can to move on..
I know that's what you want me to do..
it was not easy,
i know you know...
the past is still here with me,
and I'm slowly getting out from its shadow.
Like what i promised, i will be good..
Im really trying...

this may not be the perfect world i always dreamed of,
But one of the nicest things im thankful,
is your presence in it.

I want you to know that im here.
Thinking of you every minute, every hour, everyday..
And saying "thank you"..

thank you for the courage...
thank you for the time...
thank you for the love...
thank you for the chance...

above all,

thank you...

for fixing my broken heart...

sa pagluha ng langit...

2008-06-22T11:49:00.009+08:00

Kay dilim ng paligid...
kay ingay ng patak ng ulan...
kay lamig ng simoy ng hangin....

kasabay sa pagluha ng langit, kumatok ka sa aking pintuan... tulad ng mga ibong naghahanap ng masisilungan, buong puso kitang pinatuloy sa aking munting tahanan... pareho tayung estranghero... hindi kilala ang isa't isa... ngunit sa maikling panahon na tayo'y nagkasama, unti-unti na rin kitang nakikilala... walang sawang kwentuhan... at halakhakang nakikisabay sa ingay ng ulan. mga ngiting pumapawi sa lamig na dulot ng hanging nagpupumilit makapasok sa maliliit na butas ng aking tirahan...

gaya ng nakasanayan, ang ulan ay may hangganan din.
dama ko na unti unti na itong tumitila...
ang ingay na dulot ng bawat patak nito ay unti unti ng nawawala..

tulad ng paru-parong dahan dahan ng nagsisiliparan.
batid ko na oras na rin ng iyong pagpapalaam...
ngayon nga ay aalis ka na, para magpatuloy sa iyong paglalakbay...
parang may patak ng ulan na dumampi sa aking pisngi habang pinagmamasdan ko ang yong paglayo...

salamat sa munting kaligayahang idinulot mo
nung akoy nag-iisa sa gitna ng bagyo...
mawala ka man sa aking pananaw...
manatili naman ang munting pag-asa
na sana sa dulo ng makulay na bahaghari,
tayo'y magkikita pang muli...

At ngayun ay bumabalik na ang tag-ulan..

kakatok ka pa kaya sa aking pintuan???

hanggang dito na lang...

2008-06-20T15:03:00.016+08:00

Ang laban ng pag-ibig ay minsan ko ng pinasukan. minsan na akong sumugal, lumaban at nakipagsabayan. Nanalo na ako minsan, pero kadalasan umuuwing luhaan. Ang munting pag-asa na balang araw ay magiging masaya din ako ay unti unting natatabunan ng aking mga kahinaan. Minsan sa buhay ko nagmahal ako ng labis.. binigay ko lahat..pagmamahal ko... sarili ko, puso ko, buong buhay ko... lahat lahat... Sabi ko sa sarili ko eto na. sya na nga. subalit akoy nagkamali. gaya ng iba, kinailangan nya ring magpaalam... Oo, masakit... mahirap... hanggang sa hindi ko namamalayan, unti unti ko na palang nawawasak sarili ko.. nasisira na buhay ko, at dahan dahang naglalaho mga pangarap ko... ang masakit walang kahit sinu mang nakakaalam.. wala kahit sinu sa pamilya ko, pati na rin mga kaibigan ko... ang matigas na dingding lang ang tanging nagsisilbi kong sandalan sa mga oras na akoy tinatalo ng aking kahinaan... at tanging ang manipis na unan lang ang syang saksi sa bawat luhang nagpupumilit kumawala sa aking mga mata.

Kinailangan kong iwan ang mga mahal ko sa buhay, sinubukan kong lumayo pansamantala upang hanapin ang sarili ko, para mabuo muli ang aking pagkatao.. para sa akin, para sa mga taong nagmamahal at naghihintay sa aking pagbabalik..

Ilang araw na rin akong nagdaramdam.. nangungulila... umaasa... Ilang gabi na rin akong nakatingin sa mga tala sa madilim na kalangitan. Alam kong isa sa mga nagkikislapang bituin ay lihim akong binabantayan at pinagmamasdan. At sa wakas narinig din nya ang bawat tibok ng aking damdamin.

Matapos ang ilang taong pagdurusa at pag-iisa.
hanggang dito na lang...
ngayun, ikaw ay nandito na..

Hindi kita hiniling, kusa ka nyang binigay sa akin.
dumating ka sa oras na kala ko wala na talagang pag-asa.
Sa isang iglap binago mo takbo ng buhay ko.
sa maikling panahon lang pinakita mo sa akin ang tunay na mundo,
ang mundo na matagal ko na ring hinahanap...
hindi ko alam kong binigay ka nya sa akin para mahalin ako..
o para turuan akong magmahal sa isa pang pagkakataon.
tinulungan mo akong hanapin ang bawat piraso ng aking puso
at dahil sau alam kong mabubuo ko ulit ito.
Nagpapasalamat ako sa kanya, dahil pinahiram ka nya sa akin...

sa bawat bigkas mo ng pangalan ko,
alam kong hindi na ako nag-iisa...
sa bawat ngiting binibigay mo,
alam kong pwede pa pala akong maging masaya,
sa bawat oras na nakakausap kita, alam ko na kaya ko na...

Ibinalik mo ulit ang puso ko, kaya hayaan mong ibahagi ko ito sau...
susubukan kong makalimutan ang lahat...
susubukan kong buksan ulit ang aking puso..
handa na akong magmahal muli..
gagawin ko lahat para maipadama sau kung gaaano ako kasaya at dumating ka sa buhay ko...

sana hindi ka magsasawa...

at sana…

hindi ka na mawawala...

for someone special ^_~

2008-06-17T15:16:00.002+08:00

When God Made You

Its always been a mystery to me
How two hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you, I believe
That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one
Now gone are all my questions about why
And Ive never been so sure of anything in my life

(Chorus)
I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

I promise that wherever you may go
Wherever life may lead you
With all my heart Ill be there too
From this moment I want you to know
Ill let nothing come between us
And I will love the ones you love
Now gone are all my question about why
And Ive never been so sure of anything in my life

(Repeat Chorus)

He made the sun He made the moon
To harmonize in perfect tune
One cant move without the other
They just have to be together
And that is why I know its true
Youre for me and Im for you
Cause my world just cant be right
Without you in my life

(Repeat Chorus)

He mustve heard every prayer Ive been praying
Yes He knew everything I would need
When God made you
When dreams come true
When God made you
He mustve been thinking about me

Pag-ibig

2008-06-17T14:19:00.006+08:00

Marami na ring puso ang tumanggap sa akin...
Marami rin sa akin ay takot makipagkilala.. Ang iba nagsasabi ayaw nilang masaktan,
na iniiwasan nila ako dahil hindi pa sila handa. Na ako ay isang laro lamang at ayaw nilang sumugal dahil natatakot silang matalo. Masakit isipin na sa kabila ng mithiin kong magpasaya, may nalulumbay pa rin dahil sa akin. Hindi ko hangarin ang ikaw ay saktan, at ang makilala ako ay lalong hindi mo kailangang paghandaan.

Matagal na ako sayo'y nagpaparamdam,
subalit ako ay pilit mong iniiwasan.
Alam kong hinihintay mo ako, alam kong kailangan mo ako.
Dama ko ang iyong pagnanais at ang iyong pangungulila,
ngunit ang yung damdamin ay binabalot pa rin ng pag-aalala na baka muli ika'y lumuha ng dahil sa akin.

Nasaksihan ko ang bawat luha na dumaloy sa iyong mga mata.
Narinig ko rin ang bawat pagsigaw at pagtaboy mo sa akin.
Nakalimutan mo na ba na minsan sa buhay mo ay napangiti kita.
Na dati ako ang nagbibigay sayo ng lakas ng minsa'y nawalan ka ng pag-asa. Ang nabibigay saya sa iyong umaga, at nagbibigay kulay sa iyong gabi.

Hindi kita iniwan, hindi kailanman,
nandito lang ako naghihintay na pagbuksan mo ng iyong pintuan.

Akoy nilikha para ikaw ay paligayahin..
ngunit kung sa di sinasadya ika'y nasaktan dahil sakin..
yan ay pagdurusahan ko rin...

PAG-IBIG..

yan ang tawag nila sa akin...

kailan mo ba ako tatanggapin?

My sad love story

2008-06-15T15:48:00.007+08:00

once in my life i found the person i considered my soulmate.

and that's you. i told myself, that i would do anything,
love you and never gonna hurt you.
you were my bestfriend, my love, my everything...
we were happy.. til one day, you came to me and said,
"im sick, im afraid i can't stay with you any longer..."

i didn't believe you at first,
but when i saw those tears fall down your cheeks,
it spells out the truth about how you really feel inside...
you were deeply hurt, yah, i know... i was hurt too...
i brought you to the hospital,
despite you telling me its useless...
I asked the doctor about your condition,
he can't barely look straight into my eyes,
and he said "it was too late..."
And my life has changed at that very moment...
All of the sudden i found myself at the chapel,
with my head down, on bended knees, yelling... asking why???
I knew it, but i just can't accept it...
I was down, completely. but i had to be strong for you...
at you worst...i was loving you...
Until the day has come for us to say goodbye...
those six long years we've shared was gone in a just a second...
if only I knew that was the last time,
I should have held you and never let go.
the kiss, whisper, and embrace... it was the last,
you never hugged me that way before...
i can feel it, your arms gently falls down from my back...
i know you're gone...
we always thought our love was enough for us to last...
and i thought my love was enough to make you happy...
but its not... it was a sad ending, it's god's will...
I know you're happy now wherever you are...
And here i am, hurting.... broken....
trying to start over once again...
i know i can't get you back..
and i won't be seeing you again...
Im sorry if you see my life falling apart
My heart is shattered down the floor
With each piece I pick up -
one by one, piece by piece,
its more than a year now
this has been the longest year of my life,
the most painful time i ever had...
i tried to live my life, without you in it...
but the sadness of the night
brings back the days we had,
the time you let go of my hand,
the moment i surrendered you...
silence reminds me of all the sorrow,
the pain, and my hopelessness...
Help me! Heal me!
let me suffer in silence 'til i get over you...
and slowly, i can let you go... and i, i will be ME again...
i can still feel you... i am still loving you silently,
But i will be keeping my promise,
i will move on... but i will never forget you...
Hear me say this, One last time...
"i have found the essence of my life,
i have discovered Myself and
a world that's beautiful,..
Because of you..."

My love, my misery,
I'll let go of you now,
its time to set myself free..
i know it'll be hard..

coz this love.....

my love.....

this is all i have...

~wyteheart

My love letter (video)

2008-06-15T15:35:00.001+08:00

If You Love Someone,
Tell Them Because Hearts Are Often Broken
by Words Left Unspoken.

I love you goodbye...

2008-06-15T15:30:00.001+08:00

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back.
Im sorry, if i made you cry,
Im sorry, if tears fell from your eyes...
but remember, for every tear that fell from your eyes,
two fell from mine...

Missing you isnt the hardest part,
knowing i once had you is what breaks my heart...

Its never easy to see you turning back,
but i have to take the pain..

and cry all the way home coz i know it'll never be the same...

The pain of moving on...

2008-06-15T15:16:00.001+08:00

Dont worry i will free you,
when its finally time for you to go...
im aware that you only came into my life for a while,
and that time will come i have to give you up,
then that's the end of it.
there goes my life..

One day i can say
"finally, i'm over you!"
Somewhere down my journey,
i will fall in love again,
i know...

i can...

Sad thoughts of letting go...

2008-06-15T15:03:00.001+08:00

i never hated you for not loving me,
but i hate you for making me fall even more when im trying to let you go...

I still love you, and i probably will love you for a very long time..

Maybe fate will smile upon us, and we'll see each other again..

SOMEDAY!

Is it over???

2008-06-15T14:23:00.001+08:00

Is it over now? between you and me...
Is it time to let go now,
and set our hearts free....

Is it over now? between you and me...
if its all you have to say,
pls. just tell me....